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[Dec. 21st, 2009|09:36 pm] |
If anyone reads this still, I would love to hear thoughts and get some feedback.
This year has mostly involved a lot of personal growth. Getting to know me, and loving me, and gaining a confidence in being myself that I have never before known.
But in reflecting on the year, and realizing I made things very black and white, I wonder now how to keep moving forward.
Everything for me is generally all or nothing. And I think I really applied that to the people in (or not in, for that matter) my life this year. Fuck me over? BYE! No if ands or buts. No excuses. No time or tolerance for careless, selfish, hurtful people.
And it's not that it's "holding a grudge" but I have definitely shut some people off for good reason. Where I am conflicted is the growth here. I almost feel like I need to reach out in a very simple way to a few people, and forgive.
Though I do NOT care to have these people a part of my life, I feel like deep down, there is a rumbling hate within that is keeping me from truly moving on from these situations. And I need to find a way to let it go.
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